My eyes couldn’t figure out the center of attention as my eyes Essay

My eyes couldn’t figure out the center of attention as my eyes skimmed past the neighborhood rapidly that I couldn’t focus on a specific object. My vision enhanced steadily, even each tick of the second my body aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. As I gradually came to my senses I could feel my pulse thumping in my ears.

It took me a second to grasp that I was recumbent by the road,in the dull night.

What time was it? The piercing cold was unforgiving. I had a leather jacket on, but my legs were stagnant, frozen. Should not have worn shorts! I was besmeared with dust. Which persuaded me to ponder how long I had been here. Wait,Where am I?How did I get here?Wait. WHO AM I?

I was unable to remember my name. I scrutinized my head for concussions but It seemed fine. Then how did this happen?Drugs? Clordiazepoxide? How did I know that word? I checked my arms for punctures.

Nothing. Am I a drug addict or was this done to me? I stood up and looked at my body. I wasn’t too young. I checked my pockets, found a pochette in it. There was little money, some coins and a parking ticket. Titled October 26,2002,Berlin. I turned the ticket over and found a number scribbled on it. The highway seemed desolate. Not a single vehicle? In Berlin?How was that possible?

I began walking and I spotted a super store. I hastened my strode pulling my jacket closer into a tighter hug and clenched my teeth .The pain grew slowly. I reached the store and decided I needed to drink something at least. I walked in and I saw a old woman behind the counter. I greeted her. “Can I use the restroom?”I requested. “I’ll buy water and some food” I smiled, “not for free”. She pointed her wizened finger towards the back of the store . I hurtled into the room,locked myself in and threw a glimpse towards the mirror.

I had no idea whose face was it. I examined rest of my body and I looked fine. Good! I cleansed myself and walked out ignoring the old woman. I walked into an aisle and picked up some water,some painkillers and a scarf. I paid her and I asked her avoiding eye contact- “How far is Berlin?” “12 kilometers” “Why is the highway so deserted?” I questioned“The government is busting drug rackets, arresting a bunch of dealers and murderers around the city” “Alright”.

I exited the store and saw a telephone booth right outside. I pulled out the ticket with a number and entered. I dialed the number slowly. I was alarmed by the ring. I was seeking for some answers now. “Hello ?” said a voice in English, my mouth unhinged from my senses. “Who’s this?”It was a male voice. I had no idea what to say. “Who the hell is this?!” Then I said the only word that I knew that night. “chlordiazepoxide”. All I heard was silence from the other side. A truck passed by. “Where are you?”the voice questioned. “I have no clue ”I said. “I’m sorry all of this went wrong”he said. “What do I do now?”I asked. There was an awkward silence. “Go to base and we will figure this out” he spoke so fast “ I have to go now,They’re hunting us down.” “WAIT!” All I heard was a click. I walked out ,infuriated. The old lady’s statements related to drugs struck me.

I darted back into the store. I heard police sirens. I looked back and saw three police cars speed past me. I entered the store and saw that the old lady was staring at the television screen. A story on the drug racket was being broadcast. A plastic surgeon had been arrested for apparently helping criminals change their appearances and identities. “Turn it off” I said. I remembered who I was. Changed appearance. Drug induced amnesia. I had to close a chapter of my life that might destroy me. But it clung to me like a sickness. The next story was being broadcast now. The police had found the corpse of a teenage girl in the outskirts of Berlin. Her clothes were missing. She was last seen wearing a black jacket and white shorts. The old lady’s scared little eyes swiftly examined me. Looking at my Black jacket and my white shorts.

Never leave a trace. I picked up a butcher’s knife from the stand and looked her in the eye. “I’m sorry” I bowed. She opened her mouth to scream but it never left her throat. I wiped the blood off the knife. I looked back at her lying in the pool of blood and quickly turned away. I had to get back to base. I had business to take care of.